File: 21 Aug 2011 事件簿：八月二十一 二零一一

File: 21 Aug, 2011

I woke up quite early today, because I slept early last night.
Get myself up and started to clean the house.
After cleaning the house, started to do laundry.
Was planning for "Volunteering" for Church's Sunday Service.
But I was late due to "some issue".
Then, I have canceled the "Volunteering".
Heading out with my sister before the Service.
To fetch my nephew back to from the tuition.
So, I have been brought to the nearest LRT to head to the Service.

The Church's Sunday Service locates in Miharja.
Which I have to take public transport to the location.
Although I am late, I am still attending to the Service.
What I have remembered from 2 weeks ago, Pastor needs volunteering.
So, I have decided to help them since they do not have enough of man power.
But I failed and I'm late for the Service.

Pastor of the Day, Pastor Gary.
Shares about the "Ancient Story" back from the time where Jesus was alive.
I am not sure who is "Moses", but this fella excuses a lot.
I found the sense of humor from this Pastor, he got me laughing during the preach.
The way he presented is very funny, I like it.

During the blessing, I almost cry.
Because of my emotion is not stable since from what I had last night.
What can I do? I have to move on.
I thank them for the blessing, glad that I am able to be truth to myself.
Because of what I had, I am able to be with myself.
Thank you Pastor Joe for the blessing, and thank you dear Lord.

I've told Pastor Joe that I am not ready for home so earlier.
So I have mingled around the place.
People around here are friendly, they are very truth to themselves.
People shares their story, like I do.
They have faced more than I do, and I learned from them.
I get new friends.

Evening time, I joined the table for dinner.
I think my brain has not work well on memorizing people's names.
I think that person named Terence, who has the greatest sense of humor.
He spoke a lot of things which are funny.
And he shared his story, and I think he enjoyed his wild life.
I really like the story of his life, full of colours.
But he brings my fantasy back to reality.
I do understand how he felt when he was there.

Sitting here for more than 3 hours, so we have separated.
I do thank Travis and Pastor Joe for sent me home safely.
They are really nice people, really nice people.
For the moment, I really do feel the inner side of me.
Which appears in front to the others.
I thank god for what I had today.
I will treat it as a gift.

事件簿：八月二十一， 二零一一

今天好早起身，因为昨天很早睡觉。
爬起来然后打扫屋子。
打扫完毕，就去洗衣服。
本来想去基督教会当“志愿员”。
因为“某些因素”而迟到。
所以就取消“志愿义务”。
去教会之前就和大姐出去。
把刚补完习的侄儿接送回家。
之后，就到最近的地铁站往教会出发。

基督教会地点定于Miharja地区。
就是说我需要搭地铁站去那个地点。
虽然我已经是迟到了，但我还是会出席教会的。
我还想起两个星期前，目视需要我们的帮助。
我已经失败了，但是我还是会出席本次的教会。

交点牧师， Pastor Gary。
他一分享了很久很久关于耶稣的“古代故事”。
我不懂谁是“摩西”，但是这个家伙经常有借口。
这个牧师非常的有幽默感，他的故事把我搞到笑了。
他的讲座方式实在是很幽默，我好喜欢。

祈祷时，我差一点流泪了。
自从昨晚，我的情绪还是没有恢复。
我还能做什么？只好看开吧。
我感谢他们的祈祷，对自己的真诚我感到快乐。
我能我自己所在都是因为我曾所面对的事情。
谢谢您的祈祷Pastor Joe，以及情爱的上帝。

我告诉牧师Joe我不想那么早回家。
所以我就在里面漫游漫游。
这里的朋友都很和善，他们都对自己很真诚。
我也和他们一样，分享了我们的故事。
他们面对的东西比我还多以及困难，还有我学到了不少东西。
我增加了新朋友。

傍晚时分，我搭台加入晚餐。
他们的名字我无法全部记起，我感到非常脑残。
那个人好像是Terence，最有幽默感的一个人。
他说了好多很有趣的事情。
然后他就开始分享了他的故事，感觉他已享用他所拥有的人生。
我好喜欢他的生活故事，好多姿多彩。
但是，他把现实霸走了我的幻想世界。
我所体会到他当时的感受。

在这里差不多3个小时了。
我要感谢Travis以及牧师Joe把我安全的送回家。
他们的人实在是太友善了。
在这段时刻，我都感觉到心内里最真诚的我。
就像刚刚我所面对其他人那样。
我感谢上帝所赐给我的今天。
我会当做今天是一份礼物。

File: 20 Aug 2011 事件簿：八月二十 二零一一

File: 20 Aug, 2011


It has ended, but I am still believing on miracles.
Although it is just a short time, I am still appreciate it.
Issue remains, fight for it.
I can't claim that I am the unluckiest person on this world.
Now, I have to start over again.

Recent, I just found that my relationship has just ended.
That person said: "You was my lover, but you are my friend now".
I am not able to accept this, but why?
I have contributed so much and what I have been repaid was this?
Whatever reason I have been given, I could only accept it.
But why don't people accept mine?

I have broke down, called my best buddy.
Cried on the phone like a big baby, unluckily the phone dropped due to no credits.
This makes me cry even longer and louder, but why? LOL?
I have to move on, now for another.

I guess I am mentally and emotional ill now.
And also attempted to commit suicide.
In the end, I have not done anything stupid.
Because I just realized that I am just fine.
I still have a lot of things to do.

Now my greatest fear, my eldest sister.
Why my sister? Because I have lost the camera which I've lent from her.
It disappear in the thin air without any reason.
I left it in my bag, and it was gone on the next day.
I was thinking that I have been haunted, or cursed.
Why would a camera will be disappear in a sudden?
I don't think people mugged my bag, because no one even near to it.
Hope my sister will not find out this issue within 7 days.
Because I am trying to replace it. How am I able to replace it?
I found myself lucky, because I have met a new friend which is able to lend me money.
To replace the lost camera, I thank lord for these opportunity.
Lord, please do bless for me that my sister do not find out the camera has lost.
Thank you dear friend.

Why I am fear? Now you readers have the chance to know my background.
When I was young, I don't have any love from the family.
Yet, my dad always beat me when I did things wrong.
And also, he always kick me out from the house when argue when little older.
We did mistakes when we are little. Like steal money, being stupid, and did things wrong.
Why steal money? Because I don't get what I want when I request nicely.
They just don't fulfill my request, so I've learnt to steal from others.
In the end, I have been beaten up by my father when I got caught.

This is just between me and my father, how about others?
Here is the part which related with my eldest brother.
I have not been stealing from others by then.
I've learned about "borrow", this is much more better than "steal"
Is it related to my brother? Yes it is.
Long ago, my classmates came to my house to get what I've borrowed.
I found the borrowed item has gone, and found nothing in the house.
Then, my eldest brother slapped me in front of my classmates.
Shocked? Yeah, they have shocked.
2 years back, I saw my classmates from my hometown when I visited there.
They said: "Do you remember the time when I was outside your house?"
"Your brother slapped you, that scares me." he continued.
I am not sure what kind of expression I should put on my face.

Now, it's my eldest sister.
My eldest brother and eldest sister will raise their voice on me when I do things wrong.
It is not my fault being innocent, not well-known or stupid!
People do have their weakness and first time.

I am your youngest brother, why not you guys try guide me?
You guys have the responsibility.
If you guys don't, who should I blame the responsibility on?
My dearest Father and Mother? Because they've born me?
It doesn't make sense!
Both of my eldest sister and eldest brother has left the home.
Because my father kicked them out from the house.
It's not because of me, it's just my dad's craziness.
And they were argued, and being kicked out.

Last, my second brother.
Why him? Because he does get what he wants whenever he requested from my dad.
I found out that my dad cares about my second brother the most, he has the priority.
I have started to feel tiny and disappointed, like a decoration.
Sometimes we do fight for things, but I always lose.
Because my brother is much more stronger than me.
I feel like I am a loser in the house.

Nothing bad with me and my second sister.
Because we just do argue like childish little fellow.
Now and forever, I am quite fear about my family.
I have to pretend, PRETEND, PRETEND AND PRETEND!
I have to pretend everything is normal to get a fine day.
I feel like I am ill, crazy, mentally sick or what-so-ever.
I am afraid when people raise their voice, or bad attitude!
Why? Because what I have faced since when I was young?
I am being open minded, but I'm still not able to get through it or being accepted.
I don't have a normal life like other people do.
I just want a normal life, why I just can't get it?
Karma, guess so.

I found myself very fake since from I understand my situation.
Why am I able to smile in front of others?
Like in front of my friends, colleagues or people I don't even know?
I hated to put a sad face in front of other, because people will sympathy on me.
They will feel pity about me, and this won't help!
I do feel happy when I smile at others.
But the problem is, do they really happy when they see me with a smile?
I have no answers for this, because I ain't a mind reader.
Perhaps, I've been thinking too much.

Someday, I have to get through these.
I have to continue on fighting for my life, do not give up until I have the last breathe.
I am on my own now, everything is possible with both legs standing still.

事件簿：八月二十， 二零一一

已经结束了，但是我依然还是相信奇迹。

就算这期间都很短，我还是会珍惜的。

问题依然存在，奋斗吧。

我无法说自己是世界上最不幸的人。

现在，我需要重新开始。

刚刚，我才知道我的感情故事已经结束了。

那个人说：“之前我把你当成是情人，现在是朋友了。”

我无法接受这个事实，但是为什么？

我付出了那么多而且回报只是这些？

不管收到怎样的原因，我只能接受它。

但是为什么人家总是不接受我的呢？

我已经暴走了，打电话给我的兄弟。

在电话里好像大孩子一样大哭，最不幸的是电话突然没钱而挂线。

变成我哭得还大声，但是为什么？ 哈哈？

只好看开了，还有其他问题。

我感觉我已经是心理和情绪在生病当中。

甚至还想自杀。

到最后，我都没有做傻事。

因为我察觉自己都很好的。

还有很多事情需要做。

现在我最大的恐惧就是，我的大姐。

为什么呢？因为向她借的数码相机已经遗失了。

就没有任何的原因就人间蒸发了。

我留在我的包包的，但是隔天后就法相不见了。

我想我应该是撞邪还是被诅咒。

我不会觉得有扒手，因为都没有任何人接近我的包包。

希望我的大姐在七天内不要发现这件事情。

因为我会尝试在这段时间内取代它。我又怎样取代呢？

我发觉我是非常的幸运，因为我刚认识的新朋友愿意把钱借给我。

取代以使得数码相机，我谢谢上帝赐给我的礼物。

上帝，我还想你保佑我在这个期间不要被发现相机已经遗失。

谢谢你我亲爱的朋友。

为什么我那么恐惧呢？ 读者你们就有机会了解我的故事啦。

我小时候，我都没有得到家庭里任何的爱。

甚至，当我做错事的时候我的父亲就会打我。

还有，那时候长大了一些些他时常都把我踢出家门。

小时候一定有做错事。比如偷钱，愚蠢，以及做错其他事情。

为什么偷钱呢？因为不曾获得任何要求的东西。

他们不会满足我的需求，所以我就学会从其他人身上偷东西。

到最后，被抓到的时候我的福清就会狂打我。

这个只是我和我父亲之间的故事，那么其他呢？

这一端是关于到我和我的大哥。

那个时候我就没有偷东西了。

我就学会“借”，而且比“偷”还来得好。

很久之前，我的同学到我的家来拿我借走的东西。

我发觉我借来的东西不见了，找了整个家还是没有。

然后，我的大哥在我的同学面前赏了我一大耳光。

惊讶？对，他们惊讶了。

2年前，我回家乡时期遇见他们。

他们说：“你还记得上一次我在你家前面的时候吗？”

“你的哥哥突然间打你一巴掌，吓死人了。”他们接着说。

我也不知道需要摆怎样的心情面对他们。

现在，轮到我的大姐了。

当我做错事情的时候我的大哥大姐都会大声对我说话。

当时无辜，不知道还是愚蠢都是我不想要的！

人家都有最弱的项目以及第一次。

我是你们的弟弟，为什么你们不会尝试指导我？

你们都有责任啊。

如果你们不觉得，那么我需要责怪谁呢？

我亲爱的父母亲？因为他们把我生出来的？

这样说就没有道理啦！

之后两个都不在家里了。

因为我的父亲把他们两个都赶出家门了。

不是因为我，只是我父亲的一时疯癫。

吵架之后了，就被赶出来了。

最后，就是我的二哥。

为什么是他呢？因为他每次后有优先权。

每次他要求什么，都有什么。都发觉我父亲比较关心二哥。

我开始觉得我越来越渺小以及失望了，开始成为了装饰品。

后事后我和我的哥哥会吵架，但是我都是挣不到气而失败。

我觉得只是一个腐败的人。

我和我二姐都没有什么的。

因为我们只是很单纯以及孩子气的吵架罢了。

直到最后，我还是恐惧我的家。

我必须伪装，伪装，伪装，伪装，伪装和伪装！

我需要伪装没事才可以安宁过家里的日子。

我感觉我自己已经神经上，内心上以及感情上生病了。

我会恐惧以及害怕人家对我大声或者凶凶的态度和我说话！

为什么？都是因为这些小时候的经历？

我已经是很开了，但是我都是无法挨过或者被接收。

人家有个普通的生活，我没有。

我只需要一个普通的生活，为什么我就没有？

前世的罪孽，应该吧。

我开始发觉我自己越来越假了。

为什么我可以对其他人笑呢？

好像在朋友面前，同事勉强，甚至周围的陌生人？

我讨厌把伤心的一面摆出来。因为人家会同情我。

他们会觉得可怜，但是这些都没有帮助。

当我对其他人笑着的时候，我都是很开心的。

问题是，其他人看到我笑是否会开心呢？

也许，我自己也想太多了吧？

总有一天，我都需要跨越这些。

我需要一直为自己的生命奋斗，直到最后一刻都不要放弃。

我现在是自己一个人，我的两只脚还能站在地上就已证明一切都有可能发生。

File: 19 Aug 2011 事件簿：八月十九 二零一一

File: 19 Aug, 2011


I've missed some posts for few days back.
I don't planned to write it because some issue has happened.
Now I do feel like going to give up my life.
I am not able to stand it anymore!
I know that this is inappropriate, but what choice I do have now?
I am facing the hardest part of my life.
Whatever I've done, I got no supportive from others.
And seriously, I am not able to replace on what I have done dew days back.

What should I do now?
I don't feel like seeing anyone anymore, anymore!

事件簿： 八月十九， 二零一一

我已经遗漏了几天前的事件簿。
因为某些问题而我不打算把他写出来。
现在很想放弃我的生命。
我实在是无法承受了！
我知道这样想是很不应该，但是我还有什么选择？
我在面对最困难的难关。
不管我做了什么，我都是不会受到其他人的支持。
我无法对前几天的事情做出任何的补偿。

我应该怎么办呢？
我不想再见到任何人，任何人！

File: 14 Aug 2011 二零一一 八月 十四日の事件簿

File: 14 Aug 2011


Luck is getting worse after my 20th birthday.
Never thought of this before, but why should I have such thoughts in mind?
Started to feel tired with my life, things are getting worse that previous.
I can't prevent it and I am not able to predict on what is happening next.

This night, I have been waited outside the house approximately 5 hours.
Yet, diarrhea for the whole day.
Diarrhea is not related to my luck issue, I am just not taking care of myself really well.
Been whole day I have suffered from Diarrhea.

After my 20th birthday, I have faced a lot of problem.
Such as Family Issue, Financial Issue, Health Issue and others.
Unable to maintain a good mood for the upcoming days.
And yet, I am not able to stand the pressure from the house.
I don't like to being judge or being raised voice, I just don't like it.
They just don't get it, people doesn't mention on how much efforts that I have made.
They will not evaluate on my contributions, only on my negatives.

I was the one who has got home in first place, no one answer the door.
The lights in the house remain opened, it is wasting the resource!
I called my siblings, all of them are not home and not able to get home!
Suffering from Diarrhea with empty tummy outside the house.
There are a lot of mosquito outside the house and the weather is very cold.
I fall asleep outside the house and I do not know how long I have been slept.

Almost 4 hours, my second brother has came back.
He don't have the keys neither.
He took me to get the house key from my eldest sister which located very far.
After that, I am able to enter the house.

I have been very emotional during the time, think too much on the negative side.
At the moment, I have tried to call my friends.
From one to one, they are not available at the moment.
Yet, I have not chance to tell what I am facing.
I do feel relief when I get few people concerned about my matters.
Having less friend is such a pain for me, and this is really a sad case.
But I have to be strong, I have to get this through.
This is just a small task from the God, it proves that I am weak if failed here.




事件簿：八月十四，二零一零


自从我的生日过后运势变成越来越差。
我从来没这样想过，但是为什么我会这么想呢？
开始对自己的生活厌倦了，面对的事情比以往更差。
我无法预测以及避免以后将会发生的事情。

今晚，我在门外呆留将近5个小时。
而且，我已经腹泻了一整天。
腹泻对于这次的运势没有任何影响，因为我没有好好照顾自己。
已经承受了一整天的腹泻。

自从生日过后，我面对了种种问题。
列入家庭问题，金钱问题以及健康问题等等。
无法对日后保持好心情。
甚至，我无法承受家里的压力了。
我不喜欢人家对我做出任何比较以及批评还有对我大声，我就是不喜欢。
他们就是无法体谅我的付出以及我的好，只会对着我的缺点而来。
他们不会对我的付出做出任何评估，只有负面批评。

我是第一个回到家的，按了门铃也没有人开门。
家里的灯都是开着的，非常浪费电源！
打电话给其他的家人，但是一个一个都没有回来然后我都无法进门！
在外面空腹承受着腹泻。
外头还有很多蚊子一级外面的天气都很冷。
甚至还在外面睡着，也不知自己已经道睡了多久。

已经四个小时了，我的二哥终于回来啦。
他也没有钥匙。
佬二就带我跟他一起去找远方的大姐去拿钥匙。
之后，就可以进屋子了。

这时候心情是非常的低落，一直往负面去想。
当时，一直寻找朋友求助。
一个一个，不是个个都有时间。
并且，没有机会告诉她们我的情况。
只有几个朋友理解我的处境而让我感到安慰。
少朋友实在是不好受，也不是一件好事。
但是我需要坚强，需要通过这个难关。
也许这个指示上帝派给我的小小测验， 如果在这里放弃就已经证明我是弱者了。

File: 11-12 Aug 2011 二零一一 八月 十一、十二日の事件簿

File of August 11-12, 2011:


It's been a long day, a long long day for this day.
After I've been argued with my unofficial couple, I have been in a low-tide.
Just wonder, how am I able to be repaid on what I have done a lot to my unofficial couple.
I had been a mess for me, started to feel confused and emotional.
Consider as semi-single for my marital status.

Eliam, my best buddy has invited me for a movie with another friend, Zack.
My buddy has been nice to me, and he is a irreplaceable buddy.
Zack has drove from far to my place and fetch me up for movie.
After I had hop on his car, we directed to pick Eliam up and go to One Utama for movie.

Woohoo! The Fortune Buddies for the movie, this is really funny and interesting movie.
After the movie, Zack has to rush back for his classes.
Then, Eliam has planned for a swim in Kelana Jaya Stadium.
The point is, to look for hook-up and this is an attraction for me.
I have decided to join the swim without any considerations.

Meanwhile, I went to my buddy's place.
Took a short swimsuit from him and then head to Kelana Jaya Stadium.
Nothing attracts me, but there are a lot of cats in the area!
I love cats, suddenly in love with those kitties~ Meow~
Head to the shower room, get changed and head to the pool.
I am not able to swim well, so I am just steaming in the pool.
I feel like a paradise because I could see a lot of people with nice body figures!!

Now, this is the highlight of the day.
My buddy has been punched by a Korean Muscled Guy and it is an accident.
Both of them are swimming across and the korean guy did not mention my buddy.
So, the swimming style of the korean guy caused the damage to my buddy.
And it has been an advantage for us to start a conversation with this korean guy.
This korean guy is very attractive, nice body and good looking.
We have tried a lot of things to get thing quite excited.
In the end, we ended up without anything. Nice try though.

After that, I head to my buddy house and overnight.
We cooked for dinner and the food is really fantastic.
Red Wine Chicken Noodle, this is really awesome.
With red wine, ginger, half sized chicken, mushroom and noodle.
After that, we watched some reality series and go to bed.

Next day, I have been long sleep.
Wake up in the Afternoon, took lunch instead of breakfast.
Then, my buddy has said that he have to go to the town and go for a talk-show.
I am not going to join because my mood is still floatin'.
Then, I have changed my mind and join the talk-show.

We left the house and head to the train by bus.
We have wasted for a hour in the bus because we got the wrong bus.
Should not have took the bus, that bus is just stupid!
Then we head to the town and met up with another friend of ours.
Head to the location and meet another friend of ours again.

The talk-show is just simple, but it is really funny.
Jokes with travel topic and some dance shows.
They just had my days, I quite like them!
4 of us finished the show and we head to supper.
Friend are bringing us to meet 2 of his friend, and I gained another friend.
After the supper, my friend has sent us home from each location to another.
Finally I am home.

Although this 2 days have been long days for me, but it is not helping my mood recovering.
Friends of friend was being too straight and too opened, some words have been a pain for me.
I just don't like it even though the friend of friend did not meant to be it.
So what? I am just different from others and I am unique.
Unable to disclose it, but I have to just ignore it.
I am not able to help it with my personal life and others too.
Just have be myself.
I have experienced it and thank to the god.
Thanks for everything.

事件簿之八月十一、十二日，二零一零：

好漫长的一日，真的是好漫长啊。

自从和我还没有公开关系的伴侣吵架，我现在已经是很低潮的状态中。

想想，我所对他付出的一切将会如何得到怎样的回报。

搞到我一团糟，已经开始混乱以及忧郁了。

现在我的状况将会归类为半单身吧。

Eliam,我的好兄弟邀请我和另外一个朋友Zack一起去看戏。

我的兄弟对我好好，还有他是无法被取代的。

Zack特地从远来到我这里接我去看戏。

上车之后，我们就去接Eliam然后往One Utama去看戏。

好野！我们去看“劲抽福禄寿”，这部戏实在是好笑以及有趣啦。

看完戏过后，我们的Zack大哥就需要上课去。

之后，Eliam打算去Kelana Jaya Stadium游泳。

正点是，我们只是想去“钓鱼”然后这个对我来说是很有趣的一件事情。

我就决定参与这一份一起去游泳咯。

过后，我就到兄弟的地方去。

跟兄弟借一件泳裤然后就到那个泳池去。

没有什么吸引我的，但是有好多好多的猫仔啊！

我好喜欢猫，突然间喜欢上那边的猫咪了~ 喵~

到更衣室去，更衣后就到泳池去。

我的游泳技术不是很好，只好到泳池里溪水。

我感觉这里好像天堂一样，因为这里的人都有很好的身材啊！！

现在就正式进入当天的焦点。

我的兄弟被一个壮似的韩国佬送上一拳而且只是一个意外。

那个韩国老在擦肩而过当时没有注意到我的兄弟。

就在那个时候那个韩国佬的游泳方式就产生了攻击。

在这个时候我就跟那个韩国老开始搭话就成了好处之一。

这个韩国佬实在是太诱人，好身材以及好帅。

我们尝试炒热气氛以及做了某些东西。

到最后，我们都没有得到任何收获。 好一个尝试。

事后，我就到兄弟家过夜。

我们还煮了好吃的晚餐。

红酒鸡面线，这个实在是太美味啦。

有红酒，半只鸡，姜，冬菇以及面线。

之后，我们就看戏然后就睡觉去。

过了一天，我睡了好久好久。

起床时已经下午了，就只好吃午餐。

然后，我的兄弟说要到城市去看Talk-Show。

我本打算是不想去的因为我的心情还是起伏状态。

过后，我改变主意就一起去看Talk-Show。

我们离开了屋子上巴士去火车站。

上错巴士而造成我们已经浪费了一个小时。

实在是不应该上这个巴士，这个巴士实在是烂透了！

过后我们就到城市里跟一个朋友会合。

然后就到目的地去跟另外一个朋友会合。

这个Talk-Show非常简单化，但是很幽默好笑。

关于旅游的话题还有一些高校的舞蹈节目。

他们已给我美好的一天，非常喜欢他们的说！

我们四个人看完这个Talk-Show之后就到另外一个地区去吃宵夜。

朋友带我们去将另外两个朋友，然后我就增加了一个新朋友。

宵夜过后，朋友就送我们各自回家。

到最后，我到家了。

虽然这两天是非常的漫长，但是对我的心情回复是没有帮助。

朋友的朋友实在是太直接以及开放，有些用词上已经冒犯了我。

不管他不是故意都好我就是不喜欢。

还能怎样？ 我就是跟人家不同意及我是特别的。

我无法泄露，我只好无视这些。

我无法对我的私事以及其他东西带来好处。

只是要当我自己。

我体会到了这些都是要感谢上帝。

谢谢所面对的一切。

A welcome back to myself. 欢迎自己回来

A brief message to welcome myself back
I has been a long time, now it is my time to get back to the page which I stopped.
I had passed through a lot of tasks which are tough and interesting.
Now, it is time for me to continue the story of my life.

再回的短简讯息
已经是一段时期了，现在是时候再回到中断的那一页。

这段时期已经历了许多风雨，种种难题以及有趣事件。
现在，是时候继续改写我那已中断的故事。

Incident of December 8, 2010. 十二月八日，二零一零年事件

Incident of 8 December, 2010

Wake up from friends' house, get prepared and head to work.

Thanks to my friend for sending me to work, but I'm a bit late.

Likewise, super busy with work.

Hardly breathe in the space of duty, but I got to work hard!

I've remember about the promises that made by my dad.

But, something that really disappoints me.

My dad, lied to me again.

Why? I don't know why my dad likes to make promises and break it.

Breaks my heart, having such faith on him.

Although the relations between my dad and I were bad, I doesn't hate him.

But now, I really dislike him. He made me feel this way.

When I was young, we fought a lot.

The point is, he is my dad.

I don't hate him because of the past.

Now, I really dislike him because of what he did recent.

I just can't take it anymore, my armor is cracking.

At last, the armor has broken.

I could not hold these tears, it's sucks!

I feel shame on it, why I have to be so emotional!

Glad I finished my work, could be big if it happens during my work time.

But, colleague saw me cracking at the corner.

Embarrassed, everything makes me speechless the whole night.

Later, follow friends to Damansara, because his girl-friend's birthday.

This is really not good, because I am showing my current attitude.

I turned so speechless and a bad face with tears.

Enter friend's car and head to Damansara.

I was so emotional, looking at the view out from the car.

Middle of the journey, we encountered an accident!

My friend breaks the car because of the driver from front making a sudden break.

Luckily, friend was able to stop the car.

If my friend doesn't stop, we will crash the car.

Unfortunately, there is a car from behind bang into us.

I bounced up and shocked. Sees what happen.

Sucks, we are the victims.

Discussed a lot with the one who bang us.

Suddenly, traffic agents joined the accident and I think they are just annoyed.

Bumper has been banged necessary and makes the car unable to move.

So, we have everything recorded and traffic agents brought us to Damansara.

We reached Damansara, hop into friend's girl-friend car and head to The Curve.

Go to Red-Box for Karaoke, I am depressed for it.

At last, I am able to break through my emotions, part of it.

Celebrate friend's girl-friend birthday, and went to Police Station afterwards.

Why? Because we haven't make Police Report of the accident.

It's already 4:00am in the morning, quite tired.

Spent some time in Police Station for the case report.

We are so tired, exhausted!

When everything has done, we head back to hostel.

Slept in the car while heading back.

Time has reached 5:30am, head to bed without shower.

I've remember, it's been a year I worked in this company.

I really loved to work here, this place is a family to me.

I have a great boss and great colleagues.

Relationship between me and colleagues are closed.

They were like brothers to me, and I am the youngest amoung in the company.

Wouldn't want to dissappoint them, should have work hard!

Better than my family, because I don't have to worry much.

Because of my bad backgrounds, I really dislike my family.

But, not totally dislike my family. Just my dad because of recent issue.

Sigh, I miss my mom and my grandparents.

They are old now, no one to take care.

What to expect, it's parcel of life.

事件簿： 十二月八日，二零一零年

起床，准备然后到公司去。

我需要感谢我的朋友送我到公司去，但是我有点迟了。

还是与往常一样，草忙碌的。

在工作的空间难于呼吸，但是我需要多多努力的！

我想起我父亲告诉我的承诺。

但是，有一样东西非常让我失望。

我的父亲，有在说谎了。

为什么？我真的不知道为什么他那么喜欢答应人家东西然后不实现它。

伤了我的心，还怪我那么信念我父亲。

就算我和父亲的关系再怎么坏都好，我都没讨厌他。

但是现在，我真的很不喜欢他。是他自己造成的。

我们小时候，一直吵架。

重点是，他是我的父亲。

我不是为我所经历的而讨厌他。

现在，我不喜欢他的原因都是因为刚所发生的事情。

我实在是无法忍受了，我的防备正在崩裂。

到最后，我的防备已经崩裂。

我无法停止这些眼泪，超鸟的。

我感觉很丢脸，为什么我需要那么伤心。

还好我已经完成我的工作，要不然被大庭广众看见也不是很好。

可是，被同事看见我在角落崩溃的样子。

尴尬，所发生的一切都弄到我很无言。

之后，跟朋友到Damansara去，因为朋友的女朋友的生日。

感觉气派不是很好，因为我那么冷落的态度。

我又那么无言状况而且又加上我苦瓜脸带点泪。

进入朋友的车子然后到Damansara去。

我非常的低落，往车子外的风景望。

途中，我们发生车祸！

朋友看见前面的车子突然间刹车然。

幸亏，我的朋友来得及停车。

如果我的朋友没有停车，我们就会撞车。

不幸的是，后面有一辆车撞上我们。

突然间被惊吓，弹了起来。然后看看发生了什么事。

鸟，我们是受害者。

我们下车和那个车主谈谈。

突然间，有Agent过来插手然后我觉得他们很烦。

车后的缓冲挡已经被撞到很惨导致车子无法行动。

一切搞定好了之后我们就上了Agent的车子望Damansara去。

我们到了Damansara后，上朋友的女朋友的车子里，然后再到The Curve去。

到Red Box去唱K，其实我还是很低落。

到最后，我还是突破了，一部分罢了。

庆祝朋友的女朋友的生日，然后再到警察局去。

为什么？因为我们还没有举报刚才的车祸。

已经4:00点凌晨了，已经累毙了。

花了很多时间在警察局里做举报。

我们已经很累了！

但全部做好了之后，我们就回到宿舍去。

已经是5:30凌晨了，没有冲凉就睡觉了。

我想起了，我已经在这个公司效劳一年了。

我非常喜欢这个公司，因为这里好像一个温暖的家庭。

有好老板以及好同事。

我和同事们的感情是非常的亲近。

他们好像我的哥哥们，然后我是全公司最年轻的。

我不想失望他们，我应该努力争取！

比我的家庭还好，因为我不需要担心很多东西。

但是，不是指我很讨厌我的家庭。只是父亲所造成的事情。

唉，我好想念我的母亲，阿婆以及阿公的。

他们已经老了，没有人照顾。

我有什么好预料的，这也是生命所需要经历的。

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Friend's car has been crashed by other 朋友的车被人家撞到